25

at the ripe age of 25, i believed my frontal lobe has developed enough. 

as of last year, i had a crush, it seems fine last year, but as i am 25 now, i am afraid crushing is childish, (it's not, i know but i am in constant battle with myself, so this is me problem)

as of now we both are 25, someone's going to get older.

and when i have a crush on him, i do think of it as a long game as i always think.

but me vs me thinking omg being 25 is a bit old to have a one-sided crush,

listen to enough for you by reality club while reading this

feels like time is running so close to me i got overwhelmed.

maybe i want to move on in a midst of i will still be thinking of you in the back of my mind,

because let's be honest, i'm the top 1 for being worst at moving on.

there's so much factor of to why i wouldn't want or mind not moving on, (me vs me again)

but i think i will be perfectly fine.

(this is me hyping myself if love has never crossed out path, because it just seems to be pattern to not be chosen)

in the softest whisper, if love did happened to pay a visit to the what ifs connection we've had, i am surely grateful.

now listen to & if we don't belong together by raissa anggiani 

it's funny to be hopeful,

but i am really hoping.

(he's very funny and sane man, it's hard not to laugh at him)

- mildly confused aina