i wanted to love again i want a genuine love and i want to get my heart breaks, shatters into pieces... sadly i know i can truly love once, and i've loved, even it was unrequited, one sided. i still did with all my might. and being brokenhearted is crushing feelings, with every horrible thoughts. that was the last time i feel emotion as big as that. and as crazy as it sounds, i just want to feel like that again. i am sure being in love and love itself is a great feelings, but i don't miss that feeling. but mending your own hearts is the coziest feeling. so i want a genuine love then a heartbreak! (i used to feel like this but with different motives to not feel like other people won over me just because i feel feelings much greater than them, but now i just truly wanted to experience heartache again, at least i'm not numb, i just want someone true & right to break my heart ♡ ) (p/s: my friend do not condone the break my heart part, so i just want someone true & ...